Faith In A Feeling
Sometimes we don't need everything to be clearly laid out before us, sometimes we just need a little blind faith…
“Let Your Intuition Be Your Compass And You Will Be Guided Towards A Life That Nurtures Your Wildest Dreams And Most Heartfelt Intentions”
Jo ChunYan
So, I held my first Cancer Emotional Wellbeing Support Group last week (need to work on the name – answers on a postcard please!)
But wow it was amazing!
Everything I could have wished for!
So much seemed to align for us, as if signs from the universe showed us that this is right!
The space was perfect! Private but comfortable… Relaxing but also a space that felt like it held us as we let go…
There were watery eyes at some points, but also moments where we were all laughing!
Cancer doesn’t have to be all doom and gloom… yes it’s crap, a complete sh*tshow of a life event, but it’s OK to have times where you find things funny and can laugh about it!
Helping others to lighten the weight of a cancer diagnosis, through treatment and beyond
That’s what this is about… that’s what I want for this group… that’s one of the big motivators for creating such a group… To help like-minded people feel held as they talk, share and let go… To be in a safe space where they are able to externalise and release whatever they need to, whether verbally or just sitting in a quiet place of contemplation, but surrounded by people who will hold them in that space without judgement or expectation…
For people to come exactly as they are… but hopefully to leave that little bit lighter, that little more uplifted… feeling a little more supported and a little less alone… and perhaps even a little more resilient to move forward.
It felt like a very special place…
And I even had a moment of enlightenment, mid-way through the session, a realisation came to me so clearly it’s as though a light was being shone upon me and a voice was announcing:
“This is how I am supposed to use my degree to help others…”
Sometimes we have to trust our instinct… turn our attention inwards… tune out of our brash and noisy heads and in to our quieter, yet intuitive gut feeling…
Back in 2020, I started three long years on a degree based on a hunch… a feeling that it just felt right… I achieved a Bachelor’s degree in Counselling and Psychotherapy but had no intention to become a therapist (I know right?!)
This degree just felt right! And so strong was that felt sense that I literally (and blindly) had to run with it!
However, just three weeks after my last lecture, all the pieces fell into place… the universe gave me the answer of why I had to do this degree… to help me to face and navigate my cancer diagnosis! (I mean, I’m sure there could have been other, gentler ways to give me the answer but hey, thanks anyway!)
Because without the monumental personal growth I experienced during this degree, and without the profoundly inspirational people I met along the way, I would not have been able to face this, at least not a fraction as positively as I have been able to (…most of the time).
But a year out of ‘physical’ treatment now and I’ve still been left with the question (and dreaded post-degree pressure) of what am I going to do with this degree, and how am I going to put it to good use?
Well, so far, I’ve been sailing along on the cloud of self-development, of writng and sharing my learning through this blog, and the comfortable trust in knowing that not everything has to come with monetary validation.
And I stand by this.
Three years of hard academic work (at the not-so-young age of 39) and the not-so-lovely debt of student loans were worth it for the learning and self-growth I have achieved! I mean how often do we value things purely by the cultivation of wellbeing and personal prosperity?
But then, sitting in the support group that night shone a light on the true worth of my degree… sitting amongst like-minded people, grateful for the connection and space, the energy and comfort in that room, well that was just the cherry on the top.
If my degree has got me to this point where I can help and support others in this way… that it has given me the self-awareness, self-acceptance and the ‘cojones’ I needed to create a group like this, well then it has all been so worth it… I just needed to keep a little faith ✨
Take care and much love,
Julie x
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