“From New Years Resolution To NEW ME EVOLUTION”
If, like me, you approach New Year with a whole load of apprehension, then read on to find out how this year I’ve decided to change the script and approach it in a new, unique way…
“What You Think, You Become.
What You Feel, You Attract.
What You Imagine, You Create.”
Buddha
So, I’ve decided this year I’m changing the script!
Not one for New Years Resolutions anyway (I mean who needs even more pressure piling on us!) But this year I’ve decided I’m going to look at it differently…
As someone who can be provoked into an anxiety attack at the simple thought of visiting Asda on a Saturday morning, New Year to me is like a vast open landscape, full of vulnerability and no sign of where the road leads out in the distance…
But then, something has shifted this year, and I’ve decided that instead of cringing and trying to play hide-and-seek with the approach of New Year, I’m going to change my perspective!
Welcome to the stage “logic”…
(Reading the dialogue inside my head):
What exactly is “New Year” anyway?
It’s a concept.
It’s just a concept!
An invented idea.
One which I approach with a mixture of relief at making it to the end of the year in one piece (although even this is questionable this year thanks to mastectomy surgery in August 🤭) and also full-blown anxiety of another 365 days of “What if’s” ahead of me!! (My breath just got tighter even as I wrote that!)
So let’s change it…
I’m reminding myself that there is no ensuing giant clock, that clunkily flips over at midnight on 31st December, accompanied by a starter pistol as we all hotfoot it out the gates like a gathering of greyhounds, racing towards the unknown!
In its simplest form, new year is just another second, another minute, another hour flicking by, like any other second, minute and hour before it.
It’s a steady road, a continuous path in our story.
The next chapters aren’t written yet, and this is the best thing:
We get to decide what backdrop we want to put on those pages…
We get to guide the narrative…
We get to design the set for the next scene…
So this year I’m taking the pressure off myself to try and enjoy the new year celebrations, it’s just not my thing!
And I won’t feel bad about being tucked up in bed when the fireworks start.
Or feel a sweeping wave of melancholy as I’m not in the choir for Auld Lang Syne.
I’m going to let those who love New Year celebrate in style and wish them all the best, but it’s thank you and good night from me.
And I’m going to get up on 1st January and remind myself it’s just another day, it’s a continuum, there is no need for any added pressure.
Let’s flip the script
And instead of focusing on the anxiety, I’m going to flip the script and ask myself, “What am I excited about and looking forward to this year?”
Continuing with my writing journey; completing one incredible writing experience and commencing another really exciting one! (I will be sharing more on both of these soon, so stay posted!)
Going out for dinner with Steve to celebrate our anniversary (this is a fairly rare occasion for us, usually it’s a nice meal cooked at home in our comfies – which is just as nice don’t get me wrong - love you Steve!)
I am extremely looking forward to finishing chemo - that is going to be one huge celebration!
Celebrating the boys’ birthdays - ‘A’ entering his last year before reaching double digits, and ‘E’ officially becoming a teenager (hmmm yeah not sure I should be looking forward to this one so much… but hey let’s roll with it!). And not long ago this would have hit me with a huge pang of sadness that they’re growing up, but now I’m feeling unbelievably lucky that I get to watch them grow up.
My best friend coming home in the summer for a few weeks – she moved overseas last year and I miss her loads! But then, it makes the time we do get to spend together even more precious and full of laughs… and a lot of hugs!
And as I look at the list, I realise it’s full of lots of little things! There is no grand plan or extravagant occasion… a consolidating reminder that it’s the little things that really matter 💞
What would be on your list of ‘looking forward to’s this year? What makes you feel happy and excited about what’s to come? Why not share in the comments or message me direct, I’d love to hear yours: wavesofthoughtblog@gmail.com
Take care & much love,
Julie x
With you all the way dear friend! High five to 2023 because it connected me to you and that is something I’ll cherish for the rest of my life. Thank you for being you 💫❤️